Virgo:: "Dear Rob 'Fat-Burner' Brezsny: I used the Sweet and Sassy Toner video and lost only two pounds in five weeks. I tried the No More Love Handles program and actually gained weight. The only thing that really worked was your column. Reading your horoscopes has, I'm convinced, been responsible for bringing me much closer to having my dream body. You've helped me jettison a ton of psychic fat, not to mention a wad of guilt, a load of concern about what other people think of me, and a mass of remorse about the past. I never realized how much of my extra weight had to do with psychological burdens I was carrying. This is the lightest I've ever been! Grateful Virgo." Dear Grateful: Give yourself credit, too. It has been courageous of you to get rid of your unnecessary buffers. By the way, this week will be the climax of the shedding process. Celebrate your success by emptying out even more.
I have been feeling emotionally lighter in general this year. I mean, health stuff aside. Otherwise I feel pretty unburdened. A lot of it is consciously cutting out elements that stress me in an emotional-trigger sort of way. I cut out drama, and in some cases that meant cutting out people prone to drama so I didn't get any residual drama-scum splashed on me. And I know to some that might sound cold or heartless or what have you, but... well. I'm much happier for it. And I think some distance, more than anything, helped ease remorse over the past. In retrospect, I didn't realize just how unhealthy my previous relationship was until I got in the one I'm in now. I don't think I've had a stitch of angst about J since the day after that initial weekend where things were still a little bit hesitant and unformed. And of course it's an immense relief in and of itself to have a partner who doesn't constantly push buttons out of some misguided notion that being a pernicious ass makes one some sort of charming trickster or rogue. But that's neither here nor there, and the point is that it's a weight gratefully dropped, and I've filled that hole with lots of nurturing.
In other news, I am half-asleep at present. I had a nap right after work, which gave the unfortunate side effect of making it impossible for me to fall asleep until 3:30am. So... four hours of sleep. It's going to be a long, long day. But hey! There is
Project Runway at the end of it, so not all is lost.