Free Will Astrology for the week of September 7th, 2005

[sihayadesigns]

Virgo:: You don't want to have to answer to the past, right? It's a waste of time. Nor do you even feel like rebelling against the way things used to be or rejecting the stale old expectations people would like to hold you to. I don't blame you, Virgo--especially now, as you enter the frontier zone where the possibilities are limited only by your imagination. The way I see it, it's your sacred duty to shake off all the sacred duties from yesteryear as you go forth to create the future.

All of this talk of sacred duty, and some days, I can barely keep my head above water. And I don't want to worry about the future. I tried creating a happily ever after. Turns out, the happily ever after is the hardest thing to let go of. I'll start with just being okay on a consistent basis, if you don't mind. Miles to go and all that.

My mother's surgery went badly. For those not in the know, my mother has no thyroid, which means she's been on serious medication for most of her life. One of the side effects of her medication is that every few years, a thick white "web" grows on the inside of her throat, making it hard for her to eat or speak. It needs to be surgically removed when it occurs. Yesterday was one such surgery.

Well, they knocked out her front teeth during the procedure. Tooth weakening is another side effect of Synthroid. They also saw something that caused them to take three seperate biopsy samples. Results should come in next week, and she can't get to the dentist for three weeks.

I'm so upset over so many things that it's a wonder I've been able to focus at all today. I'm scared for my mother. I'm nervous and jumpy in general. This is not my best week ever.